This past week was my eighth week off of babysitting. Can you believe it? Eight weeks have flown by. I've eked out the goodness of each day, I plotted what I would do with the precious 16+ hours I gained in my week. The weeks have been glorious.
I remember when I had my first week off and I sat on my loveseat just basking in the luxury of an unscheduled day. I loved that sense of boredom and the freedom of an entire afternoon just begging for all sorts of activities.
Yesterday I realized that all that free time is good when I have balance.
I don't like change of any sorts especially in my life but it seems there are potential changes on the horizon that I am not in control of and I spend way too much time plotting out the 'what ifs' and 'oh my' moments. Nothing has changed .... except I have time on my hands to think about it.
My personal epiphany this week was realizing that summer break has been wonderful but I'm ready to go back to babysitting. I'm ready to outwit a three year old and try to keep up with her activities. I'm ready to take her on walks and fill her little mind with stories and a vast vocabulary of what we see and do. This little job gives me balance in my life and now it's time to go back to work.
Another personal epiphany is knowing I can call a friend and talk for quite awhile about my imaginary 'what ifs' and feel so much better just knowing someone who cares for me is listening and understanding me.
Another personal epiphany is knowing that what I eat will reflect to how I feel. If I eat too much sugar I feel like crap (why oh why do I eat it then??). I have an overall healthy diet but honestly there is always room for improvement.
I've made it to August without majorly complaining about summer. I don't like summer much but I try to see the beauty and take photos to share with you. I am ready for some fall-like weather and I know I have a long wait. Thankfully Mother Nature sprinkles my lawn with fallen leaves giving me tiny glimpses of hopefulness.
I have two more weeks off before I resume babysitting. My husband and I are planning some day trips and staycations before the school year starts up again. We have some tiny home improvement projects to work on as well.
In knitting news, I made the blanket to 36 inches and started to decrease. Sadly I was doing the decreasing wrong and had to rip out about six precious rows to correct the error. I am thankful I saw the mistake before the blanket was done. That would have been really sad!